lemme share a secret to you guys...

my life wasn't that great

i always wished to be more perfect than my brothers , my sisters or even friends

i always tell my dad , that i wanted to do so many stuffs like...

a scientist to save the world , make videos to make people happy

and such... i always wanna be useful

but everytime i did it... i failed nth worked...

video making? i kinda suck

i dint get to make anything to impress my dad...

nth...

my dad always says " never give up" but instead i did....

my dad started to hate me... because of that

i give up so much that i started to dont think about it

and all is gone... shattered

Nothing much will happend since i quitted everything

i start being a bitch.. and do stuffs like not studying and stuffs

i used to study... alot... but now.. come to my senses.... i'll never change back

i used to eat Vege.. unlike the now me

i eat some but when i was lil i'll eat everything..

Now me? please... it isnt really that great

i do alot of mistakes , my teacher even have faint in me..

but it dint work . My mom always make the best of me , and make me happy...

how the story starts of my father

when i was lil i cry alot... i was a cry baby in fact..

children cries and runs to our mother right?

not me... i run to my father....

my father would tell my jokes to make me happy...

and thats when i wanna be just like him...

i tried so hard... to make him happy ,

and i passed but now? i failed nth makes him happy then my passes..

i know its stupid to tell everyone but

i wanna share to the world to see who i am...

i failed to be a daughter... to my dad...

my dad lose hope in me... so fast

i'm crying right now if i admit.. cause this hurt me deep down

then time when my dad was the happiest is when i pass my science..

i scored about 98%

i guess i have to work hard again? i think you all guess that

but i just cant , i always pray that i could .. but i couldnt

i guess life like mine never change

i never think about this again

byes

xoxo

Fion

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